I haven’t really spoken about Telford, I’m ashamed to say. This isn’t because I don’t care about it. I do! Some of the details have me struggle with flashbacks of my own experience. That in itself is very hard to deal with and balance into my life. When I have flashbacks, I get angry and emotional. Trying to deal with that alongside raising a dependent child alone is no easy task. So, I have to work through my emotions slowly and privately before I can discuss such a topic.
Then comes a feeling of guilt. How can I make these tragic circumstances which have taken place against these girls about me? Again, I am ridden with shame that I am making such a tragedy all about me and my experience. It is then when I decide perhaps I should avoid such a subject, as perhaps I might not be able to ‘discuss it appropriately’. It is then that I realise, this kind of thinking and mindset is why it isn’t being discussed in the mainstream media.
Perhaps the channel may appear too racist on its coverage. Perhaps the mainstream platform might come across too sexist, maybe even misogynistic. Inevitably we see the mainstream media shy away from such a sensitive topic, highlighting it for a matter of minutes, then distracting themselves with issues of no real concern, lacking in great evidence… such as the Russia coverage. My concerns and fears aren’t that, but instead appearing self-centred. But I think for the sake of a healthy home life and my son’s wellbeing, it has to be dealt with in my way.
I haven’t received any questions as to why I haven’t yet discussed it. I suspect many people understand. In fact, I know they do. This is another reason I believe the media avoid the subject. I have seen all too often celebrities and well-known persons object to discussing such subjects for fear that the ‘racists will jump on board the issue to further their own political agenda’. What that actually insinuates however, is that anyone who discusses such a subject is a racist trying to lead a racist political agenda. Comments such as this are dishonest, hurtful to those who care and enabling to those who harm.
I have been very lucky in the support I have received. No one I receive support from is doing it for any other reason than that they care about what so many victims are going through. I have been emailed by many who want to help. They speak to me, something I didn’t expect to happen, after my friends turned their back on me. They let me call them whenever I get down. I doubt that is easy for a stranger to sit at the end of a phone listen to another stranger sob. I’m not sure how doing that advances such a person’s political agenda.
It is still the case I have not read the details regarding Telford. I can’t. I know a fire was lit, and three people died. At that point I become teary, having flashback of my frantic attempts to soak the porch of my home in water, for fear that my home was also going to get set alight. I’m convinced it was a threat made after I had been raped by the Asian migrant who had forced his way into my home. I had been out for a drink with my friend. It was a sad affair. The following weekend I was due to undergo brain surgery to have a brain tumour removed.
To read details about those murders; being set alight to as they slept, is all too a real fear I have and struggle with even today. But that’s not the only difficulty I have with these endless reports of rape against women. It was not so long ago when there was a report of a woman walking home in Tower Hamlets, London, who was pulled down an alley way and raped. After the rapist left she went to get help from a passer-by. This passer-by then proceeded to rape her. This happened a third time, all in one hour. Again, I struggled to deal with this, flashbacks coming racing through my mind as I recalled a stranger shove his foot into my opening door and tell me to lie down in my own living room ‘and then he won’t hurt me’. Only he did. He killed me that day, and I became someone else.
I’m scared, I’m paranoid. I don’t trust the authorities at all. I don’t trust friends or family. I only trust myself. I have become completely inward, unable and now unwilling to open up to the world. That is a very toxic and unstable mindset. It is that mindset, which will see me burst with rage and do something I would never have been capable of doing had I just talked things out. But it is a mindset I have learned, a mindset taught to us by none other than our own authorities, mainstream media and not least, government. Our society turned toxic over four decades ago, before it had been reported, since this extremist sexual violence (referred to as ‘grooming gangs’ by the mainstream media) started. The governments must have known.
Channel 4 reportedly made a documentary about the gangs in 2004 but pulled the release date for European and local elections (The Guardian). The mainstream media prioritised politics over the welfare and safety of thousands of children. What’s more they continue to do this. It is now you rally need to ask yourselves, is it Facebook and Cambridge Analytica and Russia who brainwash me, or the government and mainstream media? And Channel 4, the so-called hyper progressive channel, suppressing oppression. How ironic.
It is these who claim only racist groups ‘jump onboard these grooming gang crimes to further their political agenda’. However, evidence points to those very accusers, suppressing and therefore enabling such atrocities to advance their own political agenda. They certainly speak decisively about truths they know. Finally, I would like to guide you to a couple of forum threads I found on the internet, written by Sikhs in the 2000’s. I hope these Sikhs reported what they saw to the police. But it is clear this has been openly discussed on the internet for some time now.
Finally, it is important for me to add that you should not be angry at those who have been the victims of such consequences. Some accuse of being racist, bigoted or Islamophobic. I would agree I personally am Islamophobic. Islam is a terrifying religion to me. If people can mass bomb and rape children based on the scriptures, then it is right to be fearful of those scriptures. Does speaking out make a person racist or bigoted? Well would it be racist to report the race of the perpetrator to the police? If not, why is it racist to report the race of the perpetrator in discussion?
I also get told I deserved it, that I had voted for it. Well as established in this post. The mass rapes had been suppressed to such a degree that few people knew other than those directly affected. Tommy Robinson spoke out after his cousin fell victim. Did she deserve it because she her family had voted for it? No. It is often the case that through the education system we are taught to be accepting and tolerant even of those who refuse to tolerate us. It is not easy to argue that when as children we know we lack any real knowledge. It is also probable that some victims grew up in solely white areas where multiculturalism had not been implemented (like myself), so lacked any understanding of what has been heading our way.
It is support that the victims and family members of such victims need. Not accusations. And that is indeed what we get for the most part. The most incredible support. And always remember… when it is claimed that showing this support is a racist action to further a political agenda. Ask yourself why for over 40 years, did the government suppress this? Why did no government interject? Why did mainstream media conclude that politics should be served over breaking stories which could have protected thousands of girls? Was that to further their own political agenda?
When I received grief for speaking out about what has happened to me, there are moments when I wonder if that person who is calling me a racist is in fact a family member. I have not spoken to any of my family members about what is happening to me since I revealed the incident to one friends and didn’t feel I got the support I should have. So, knowing my family's political leanings and where they stand on immigration, refugees and migrants and knowing how infuriated they become by those who oppose it, I am sometimes left wondering if perhaps it is my family members who give me grief from behind a computer screen. Which then leads me to wonder, how would they feel if they found out that it was myself their own family member and a genuine rape attack, who they were verbally attacking? Is it therefore better to assume that someone who tells such a story about rape is being genuine? And if that person who alleges such a crime is clearly of a similar racial background to yourself and from the same continent or country as yourself is it not wise to try to be empathetic towards what they are alleging whether it fits your own political beliefs or not?
How would you feel if someone confided in you as a stranger searching for help something that contradicted your political beliefs? And on that basis you condemned them rightly or wrongly. With condemning them you ultimately shame, humiliate, and belittle the trauma which they may or may not have faced in reality. The fact of the matter is you may never know whether it was fact or fiction. But what if having handed out that type of abuse you learned sometime later not only that the person, the stranger on the Internet has not only been telling the truth but unbeknown to you and unbeknown of them you were actually related. Try to consider all of the times which you have kept significant secrets from your relatives and immediate family. Now consider why you kept such significant secrets from your relatives and immediate family. And finally now contemplate why a relative or immediate family member might keep something secret from you. It is usually those with strong belief systems we fear exposing to our own truths on the basis that we are unable to predict their response.
It is not unheard of that people are under the misconception that their belief system is a moderate one. This might be particularly so politically in those who are lacking in any religious beliefs. It may not. It is these groups who may consider that because they are open-minded from a religious perspective that they are open minded on the political front. So, consider whether you follow a political pattern and follow particular political beliefs or whether you are also politically open-minded. Do you scorn those with opposing political ideologies on the television or YouTube? Are you unwilling to listen to their thoughts and opinions? I suspect that in the same way I fear telling my left-leaning family that I was raped by a migrant man, I would also fear telling a white nationalist family member of rape by a white man or a Muslim family member about a rape, had it have been the case.
On this basis it could very much be considered the case that it is politics as well as religion which is divisive within our society as well as our families. Referendums such as the Scottish referendum and the UK referendum as well as the Catalonian referendum all show how divisive a yes, no question can be in such a politically passionate climate that we currently have. This political passion and climate has without a doubt been devised by multiculturalism, a feeling of being overprotective towards certain groups and minorities and a yearning to enforce that overprotective feeling onto others. In fact it could be regarded as a cultural and a societal passion as opposed to a political one, but simply dressed up as that. So if you have a deep passion for particular groups in society or specific religions or political movements then you might be someone who is unapproachable to others.
So how can we become indifferent not only to politics but to the experiment of multiculturalism and religion when we live all side-by-side? For myself I have lacked any interest in mainstream media, I have kept out of politics and I have distanced myself from religion in an effort to prevent any of those becoming my identity and surrounding myself with similar like-minded people. The difficulty which I have come across is when I am sharing something so personal such as the rape with somebody and speaking of his different racial background. His race is his identity. As is my racial identity. It is part of his description. He was a stranger to me. How else do I describe a stranger than to note their appearance. If that appearance is different to mine, does that observation of such difference make me racist? He spoke with broken English. Does that observation to describe him make me xenophobic? I’m sure a stranger would describe me as a Caucasian female with green eyes and brown hair. And that would not be offensive to me or anyone else.
It therefore becomes questionable whether in situations like this where many people have distanced themselves from politics, religion and societal confrontations in an effort to integrate into this new diverse world how unreasonable is it for a person of a certain race who is treated cruelly by a person of another race to speak of that cruelty? At the end of the day we could abandon all our possible belief systems, but our different skin colours will always indicate to us all our different identities. Not only that but it will always indicate similarities therefore if someone similar to yourself has experienced significant cruelty at the hands of another, rather than disbelieve and accuse it might be in your interest to be helpful and empathetic without criticism. This is by no means an easy task to take on. It could even be considered unachievable but let's try to be positive and make it our aim.
I had watched a documentary which reported on the effects of Western pornography on society. It included a section regarding the effects on the African continent. It documented how in African hut villages, men and young boys would watch pornography on the Internet or phones in a hut and found that in an effort to relieve themselves, the men would find a woman or a child to rape. The village women had reported also that the men's behaviour had changed over the last few years by a severe degree whereby they felt afraid of the men. In these types of African villages, it would be questionable whether rape would be seen as a criminal offence and if there were any consequences for such behaviours. In the one-hour documentary about Western pornography, this element of it only received approximately 10 minutes of insight.
Having been a victim of the migrant rape crisis however, not an African migrant I felt the need to investigate this further. Since I had found the documentary on YouTube I decided to investigate further documentaries on that same platform. With typing in “effects of Western pornography in Africa” search results pulled up various African amateur pornography. Despite having a no pornography rule on YouTube these clips still came up. Perhaps that is the liberal side of YouTube? Not only this, but it is important for us to recognise that those in Third World cultures who watch Western pornography, will have a distorted view of white European women which would likely encourage uncivilised behaviours. Such behaviours can be observed within African villages where rape has been recognised as relief for men who have watched this pornography. With acknowledging this it is therefore important to consider how we ensure the safety of white European women and prevent this from happening knowing that these Third World cultures may observe all Western women as a collective i.e. porn stars. However, further research on this subject is not easily found on this subject, not even on the internet.
Along with the mass rapes within the African villages a steady increase in the those contracting HIV has been observed. This is something which has been controlled for now but is a concern that it could get out of control. Not only is there an increase in HIV and rape, but with no criminal action against the rapist those men are now coming over to Europe and acting in the same manner. Indeed, it is found that when migrants do rape white European women they appear to face little to no consequences in legal terms as they argue they did not understand. It is fair to say that the authorities even empathise more with the migrant than the rape victims. If these people are coming to our continent not understanding our rule of law and therefore risking our health and safety, then surely that is negligence on the part of the European Union? It is not as though they do not know what is going on and taking place against European women, children and men by these migrants. Of course, another way to look at this is the future possibility of an AIDS epidemic in Europe.
It likely is unknown how many innocent women and children and men have contracted the HIV virus having been raped by a migrant. The test was something which I had to go through myself, and to my great relief I was free of any such virus. But I didn't recollect what had happened to me for a year. Apparently, this is very usual and a way for the brain to bubble wrap the mind. However, in that time the virus could have spread onto other people. Perhaps to a partner of the victim? Maybe a new lover? And perhaps those people would spread the virus onto others unknowingly? Well, at least there would be pharmaceuticals to make a profit out of such a catastrophe. So it seems there is a winner out of all of this devastation and sadness.
It would be discrimination under the European Convention of Human Rights to educate these men from Third World cultures on their behaviours in a civilised society when they feel the need for sexual relief. It would be discrimination because they could claim it was a racist or they were being discriminated against because of their religion. Therefore it is very difficult for European countries to educate migrants from Third World countries specifically. It should not be taken lightly that rapes such as what have been happening in Europe will continue. In educating women and men about what has been documented in these different cultures it would certainly add to the safety of many and the prevention of sexual assault however, it would act as segregation within our society. Segregation has been happening for decades now, whereby many people have arrived from opposing cultures in the hopes of making money, but with no desire to integrate. This lack of desire to integrate, has seen those migrants unable to speak the native language and therefore be completely reliant on the welfare state. It could also be assumed that the lack of desire to integrate is from this prejudged idea that all Westerners are like porn stars or just a general disliking of Western society, despite the opes to profit from it.
But is it fair to lay the burden of these misconceptions on Western men and Western women and relieve those of Third World cultures of any crime or wrongdoing? With there appearing to be no end to the migrant crisis, this element of Third World misconception of Western women through Western pornography has to be looked at seriously and in greater detail to ensure our safety. It would be fair to assume not all migrants will presume and judge in this way, but it is also fair to assume that many will. It is important now that we recognise that talking about our differences, our obvious differences has now become a necessity. We have to stop pretending that these men arriving from Third World countries are civilised men understanding our laws and our culture, all for the sake of appearing empathetic, understanding and rejecting racism. We have to now accept that some of these people are not civilised and there is masses of evidence to prove that.
With the Internet being a globalised utility currently, and Western porn now being free entertainment to the masses worldwide it is important we consider the psychology of how it affects different cultures who our political elite are inviting in. It is also up to our political elite to consider these elements and review their laws and legislation. Surely, we can only all be equal under the law if we have all been educated under the same rules and laws. If we have been educated in a very different manner or at least some of us have within our society, then surely it is better and safer to acknowledge that those in particular might be a greater risk to society as a whole. Rather than assuming this to be racist or anti-religious we must focus on it being about very different cultures, opposing cultures being thrown together and the requirement for adjustment, teaching and intolerance for bad behaviour by all, no exceptions.
Feminists, social justice warriors and various political alignments are frequently, actively encouraging more empathy towards those victims of rape like myself. This is something I particularly appreciate under the circumstances however there is a hypocrisy which has arisen with that. In this new day and era of multiculturalism and diversity we seem to be losing our way.
Society had been heading in a place where women's rights were made equal to those of men and we seem to have been progressing to a greater opportunity of fairness and equality within society as a whole. This, for the greater number of citizens was something we embraced. But it must be recognised that equality cannot be an absolute. It is recognised that most sexual assault victims are female. With that in mind and society's desire for equal women's rights, we must approach some difficult subjects.
Over the last few decades here in the UK, there has been systematic grooming of young girls predominantly white, for sexual exploitation by Pakistani Muslim men. MPs often raise this fact but are forced to backtrack due to fear of how it will affect Muslims within our society. By backtracking on these facts that enrages not only the victims or their families but also people who have not been directly affected but fear that they could in the future. This is obviously understandable, and anybody would feel the same threat, and want to have an open and honest discussion about that threat. It is not a racist to discuss a very real and very violent threat to people of a certain race, even if that race is a majority race.
This has been noticeable across Europe also with the migrant rape crisis which I am a victim of. And in many progressive European countries, police avoid taking down the race of perpetrators and the victims; frequently female feel guilty in their part as a rape victim. This is very concerning because it inevitably means that people are now starting to speak forgivingly and empathetically towards rapists, based purely on the fact that they have different coloured skin. After years and years of educating the European population on the crime of sexual assault and rape all in the name of equality and action against crimes against women, by providing empathy towards rapists we have now regressed into a society which is fundamentally against women's rights. In fact it appears social justice and feminists are initiating the patriarchy.
As a trauma victim myself as with any trauma victim, it is important we be allowed to feel angry about what trauma has taken place on us and to be able to express that anger without fear of being arrested for a hate crime or offending another person. Too many people get offended when I describe the man who raped me. The man who raped me was an Asian (Indian or Pakistani) male who was a migrant to this country. He was not a British citizen; his English was poor, and his accent was not an English accent. Were police offended when I described the rapist to them? If I had described him simply as a male would that have been more appropriate? With the rapist still being at the large; should he rape again will the next victim describe him simply as male, or provide a description? Or will the victim describe his skin colour and that he was not a British citizen? With my rapist at large, I feel it is my duty to describe him. If only to let others know there is a rapist out there and this is what he looks like.
So why are there people who are offended by my description of the rapist? In fact, these people are so offended by my description that they frequently fail to recognise what harm a rapist can cause to a victim. Immediately these people pursue me as a Nazi or a racist or a xenophobe based on my description of this rapist. They are not upset by the harm that this rapist has caused and that he has every opportunity to continue to cause again. They are simply concerned that I haven't approached this in a politically correct manner which doesn't cause them offence.
This inevitably means that a rape victim like myself who is white, and has been raped by a minority race is offensive just by means of describing the person who raped her. Additionally, this means that the victim has to carry with her excessive guilt, stress and pressure. With this excess emotional baggage forced upon her for the fear that she may offend, or she has offended, it obviously prevents any kind of significant recovery to that trauma. This inevitably means that our laws which are supposed to prevent discrimination prevent the effective help and understanding and empathy towards such victims in their recovery.
By preventing effective recovery in the sense that a victim of a politically incorrect crime should be silenced our governments are acting negligently. Our governments and authorities have a duty of care to their citizens. Already we have seen our authorities turn a blind eye to crimes which do not fit the narrative of political correctness. The reason for this is presumably to not create tension between the different races within our diverse and multicultural society. But by turning a blind eye and by silencing victims and by preventing open discussion this has had the opposite effect.
People have lost faith in the ideologies of social justice, equality and are far keener to take a utilitarian position on society. And consider this; reverse psychology is a technique involving the advocacy of a belief or behaviour that is opposite to the one desired. The expectation is that this approach will encourage the subject of the persuasion to do what is desired. It is very hard to believe that those in power, those in government and those leading our authorities lack any intellect or common sense in recognising that to act in these ignorant and deceitful ways would create a calm, friendly and relaxed society.
These ignorant and deceitful behaviours were ordered from the top, and understandably have shattered societies trust within each other. Not only that but the powers that be repeatedly invite more risks within our society. This will inevitably cause great hostility, further segregation and civil unrest with in our nations. Moreover, it is there to question whether these actions have been deliberate. Of course, many people do question if this has been a deliberate action and those people are right to question it. But what would be the benefits of such a society like the one described? Perhaps more governmental control? Perhaps more contracts for more corporations in buying and selling security? Perhaps more news for the media to sell? Who knows, but the fact of the matter is those who question whether this is being staged are right to do so without being labelled a conspiracy theorist. To lack such intelligence and common sense in such a high position of power is absolutely intolerable and reckless.
Hello and thank you for looking at my blog and account. Currently I am fighting for a personal justice in my life. In 2012, I was the victim of a rape in my own home. The rapist was not known to me, a complete stranger. The rape took place the week before I was due surgery for a brain tumour. As you can imagine, recovering from two traumas taking place within a week of each other had a mighty effect on me. I think it is fair to say I suppressed one of those traumas whilst I dealt with the physical and mental consequences of the other, so I suppressed the rape.
Another reason for suppressing the rape was because I was raped by an immigrant who forced his way into my home having followed me home. The immigrant was of Pakistani/Indian origin. I can't say whether this man was of any religion so I won't presume he was. It was this particular trauma which completely changed my political outlook. After the attack news erupted of hundreds of young white girls across Britain having been systematically raped and groomed by Pakistani men. A key feature to these news reports were that the police and authorities did not want to intervene due to fear of violating Human Rights and acting in a racist discriminatory way. It was as I walked home and the man was grabbing at my arm demanding a kiss from me that a police car drove past. I pulled away from the stranger and waved at the police car hoping to receive help. The police car drove on and I was left alone with this threatening stranger.
History time; it was in 1984 the Police and Criminal Evidence Act (PACE) was passed in parliament. PACE was set up with codes of practice for stop and searches to take place. It was found that BME (Black and Minority Ethnicities) were 7 times more likely to be stop and searched than a white person. Do I think this had an impact on what happened to me that day? Possibly. Do I think PACE is necessary? Probably, with some essential tweaks.
Another news report, although receiving very little media attention was the R v Jamal Muhammed Raheem Ul Nasir judgment, where the paedophile was given a longer sentence as the victims of his assaults were Asian and of a certain race, culture and religion (Paragraph 8 of the judgement). I'm not an underage child, and what these paedophiles have done to ALL of these children is truly disgusting, but as a white woman I questioned not only if the authorities would deal with my report, but also in the unlikely case they did find the attacker, would I receive equal justice? I guess, as sickening as it sounds I wished my disability was an obvious disability, therefore perhaps I would have been treated as an equal rather than a privileged female.
I can honestly say that the police have been fantastic and done as best they can with so little information, however where I am feeling particularly let down is by the Criminal Injuries Compensation Authority (CICA). They have insisted that due to having no witnesses to the rape it probably didn't happen. Ah. I'm sure I have heard about a requirement for witnesses to rape elsewhere before. Rapes are shameful acts of violence and I think it is safe to say that anyone who commits such a shameful act will commit it without an audience. I intend to take this to tribunal. I received welfare whilst dealing with the trauma and I would win £11,000 in compensation which would go back directly to the public purse. This is important because it may help someone else also dealing with PTSD.
So, the above explains my mind-set on two of the three branches of law; the executive (police and authorities) the judiciary and a little on the legislature (Government) but I would like to dive a little deeper into the social politics of this situation. It has been well documented that white women over Europe are particularly scared of coming forward after such an attack by a male of certain qualities. To start besting our chests over such things shows us to be intolerant, racist, fascists maybe even monsters. It is our duty, our job to shut up and put up and be tolerant of what is owed to us. It is also somewhat disadvantageous for me that I am what some might say a well-spoken English woman. Presumably that would give the onlooker rite of passage to presume I am privileged and therefore deserving. As it stands I live in poverty. This is the case due to long term health problems. Believe me when I say I know discrimination. I really do. But discrimination and racism have lost their meaning now. As with so many fellow women in my position I am the monster because I am the racist. OK, OK so no one has directly called me a racist but with learning about microaggressions, and presumably living in an equal society, I take all of the noted to be microaggressions towards myself judging me to be a racist.
I listen to the constant wailing from the left (the side I at one point supported) and the devaluing labels from supremacist elite whilst they go on their belittling rampages of us lower/working class folk just trying to do our best under the worst conditions. I am sickened by their supremacy, their point scoring and their virtue signalling. I have spoken a little about this on a podcast on podbean entitled 'My fight for justice: part 1' the link is on one of my posts on Mind. I also hope to discuss the subject of political correctness, social justice, feminism and many other subjects in much finer detail from a woman’s perspective who has suffered at the hands of these 'improvements'. With the tribunal still to take place I think for now it is best I keep my identity concealed. However, I hope to take this matter to YouTube in the near future. Thank you for reading.
Over the last few days I have had in small influx of supportive comments over Twitter towards my situation. Attention was drawn after Naz Shah acted in a hugely inappropriate way, liking and retweeting a post on an Owen Jones parody account, requesting victims of Pakistani grooming gangs to “Shut up in the name of diversity.” She later claimed this action was a mistake. I couldn’t help but look at her Twitter feed and what further upset me was the endless support for her from Labour MPs. I felt sickened by not only her actions, but the reaction of the Labour party, (who I have for the most part supported in the past, along with other left party’s) and also the lack of action by Labour leader Jeremy Corbyn. He was so quick to push MP Sarah Champion out of government, a woman who confronted the issue of Pakistani grooming/rape gangs.
So why does any of this matter?
Well, I can understand to some degree how mocked and offended the victims of these grooming gangs feel. I am so grateful I never went through what those poor girls suffered, however I do have a fairly good understanding as to why it is so hard to turn to the police where multicultural offences have taken place on white or majority victims. Despite feeling the usual emotions of shame, humiliation and self-hatred after being raped by an immigrant who I did not know, I felt extreme anger and resentment that there was a huge risk of arrest and questioning by police on the basis of perceived racism. My attacker was Asian.
I had to question if the risk of further humiliation and possible action against myself for racism was really worth the inevitable probability that my attacker likely will never be found. I couldn’t come to that decision until I had gone through months of therapy in the aftermath of my attack. Even after the therapy it took some time to muster up the courage to approach the police. It was Christmas eve I visited the station having spent months sobbing over the horrendous stories coming out in the media regarding the ignored grooming gang cases. It was most important I no longer carried this weight around during such a special time of the year.
I did exactly the right thing. However I understandably question if the actions of the police to take my complaint seriously was a reflection of the outburst of media stories. Never-the-less the detective on my case has been incredible. His hard work paid off and the attacker located, although not in this country.
The next stage…
I am currently putting together medical evidence and news reports to support my tribunal case. This tribunal case will ensure I receive compensation for the sexual assault against me. Unfortunately I’m being denied the compensation as so many victims are today. The tribunal case means that I’m stuck in limbo feeling more resentment and anger as I see the fast progression, absurdity and suppression of political correctness. As a victim it is excruciating to observe. The refusal for allowing me to receive compensation is because I reported the crime too late.
Despite the fact that one week after being raped I had to undergo neurological surgery to have a brain tumour removed, this reason has not been accepted. It seems these days disabled people aren’t covered by the shield of political correctness, but only race, religion, gender and sexuality. But still I fight on.
What do I hope to achieve?
Well apart from the obvious, to win my rightful compensation, it has to be recognised that like myself, the majority of the victims are vulnerable people living in low income households. This is a particular concern to me because we are unable to find the finances to pay for our own legal team. As with so many of these victims, I intend to defend myself in this tribunal. And in doing so I want to document the steps I take, the news reports I used and any other relevant information I can provide to perhaps help someone, anyone gain some extra knowledge and understanding about what they next have to go through. I did turn to charities, but I found them to pass me on to other people within the organisation. It all seemed so chaotic, perhaps due to underfunding? For myself the best and only option is to fight this alone to the bitter end.
So back to that small influx of supporters on Twitter…
I have been very much alone through this experience. Those who I confided in left me. Now too scared to speak up in real life I’m speaking only through a screen. It has helped me deal with my emotions on the controversial political ideologies flying around at present. But most of all, I’m now finally getting the support I so desperately need. The fleeting second it takes for you to retweet my story, the momentary like and the simple acknowledgement that you know I’m hurting, you care that I’m struggling and quite frankly the obvious sign that you just give a shit. It matters to me. More than you can ever imagine. So please, don’t ever underestimate your support. It means the world to me.